there is a lot of pain inside,
pain which blinds and tricks into hallucinations,
pain which does not let the fear subside.
I pay a heavy price
for the crimes that they did
and it’s not as if I’m not already
buried under guilt.
It’s a terrible situation
many will identify with it-
that feeling of worthlessness
for someone else’s filth.
It’s like you are raped
and branded a prostitute
“You made the advances, the need
for intercourse making you destitute.
How was our honored rapist
supposed to control his orgasm?
It’s you who should’ve veiled yourself
instead of signaling a spasm.
You are the one who is at fault
you’re nothing but a whore
now shut up! You’re being sent to prison
for being sexually tortured, you’ll be abhorred.”
It’s like you’re murdered
and the accused is acquitted.
“How on earth can we punish him
when the evidence collected
Has been badly tampered with
we destroyed it, its almost finished
no, our dear murderer cannot be hanged
even when the murder was committed”.
In front of a hundred people
they all saw her die
but since everyone’s been suppressed
been threatened for life,
by the respected killer
they all fear him
hence the case is closed, the killer acquitted
sorry, but this bench serves only to the prude’s whims.”
It’s like you’re hanged
for something you didn’t do.
“How can you ever say that?
How do we believe you?
How can you prove
it wasn’t your fault
when you were very much present
in the same hall
We don’t care
if no one saw you do it
this is ‘the bench’ my friend
and we are not foolish
enough to sentence
the ones who feed us
you are guilty, though maybe not proven
but you’ll be hung to keep us
in our Lord’s care
we are the pawns of their game
and all we can do
is judge and blame
criminals like you
who don’t commit crimes
but your only fault is that
you don’t have gold, only dimes.”
Shalini Rajvanshi



