The pain of losing myself

  • SumoMe

The jungle was dark and the trees were tall,
I could walk along them but preferred to crawl.
They were talking in a language alien to me,
Their movement was synchronized, like the school of fish
moving in the sea.

I went with the tide and collected whatever I could,
Everything looked valuable as I couldn’t differentiate
between diamond and wood.
I tried to turn over every stone in the jungle whether big
or small,
I pushed myself to every limit to stretch the leather ball.

I made good friends and the tortoise was my best friend,
We played with birds and went completely round the bend.
I learnt new facts, created a new world which I fancied so
much,
Never knew that everything would be lost by that single
touch.

We lost our way in between and got separated from the group,
He found his way but I couldn’t move as I was tied to the
hook.
I started living on my own in the new world,
Picked up many stones and liked some,
But they were getting heavier as I was away from the herd.

It rained, it snowed and I enjoyed the nature,
Never noticed that fungus had covered the stones and they
had lost their stature.
I wandered around with a hope to survive,
But the ocean was too deep and I didn’t know how to dive.

When I had lost the hope, suddenly the tortoise appeared
from nowhere,
He was rich and had new friends but they were covered by
layers.
I sat on his back and crossed the dark water,
He said I shouldn’t lose hope and trust the nature.

I knew that the water would harden in winter and melt
in summer,
I knew that nature would complete the circle on time, like
the runner.
But the fantasies had turned off my brain,
I was being worse than an insane.

Finally a new lesson was learnt and the tortoise left me
when the water turned into ice,
He had a job to do for which he was being paid a hefty
price.
I thanked him and continued my journey ahead,
I could imagine how difficult it would be to find a new bed.

There were many of my kind, whom I met during the journey,
The only difference was that they knew the problems and the
way to find the key.
They said I had lost myself, should change my attitude,
I followed their advice and thanked them with gratitude.

I knew that the journey ahead was to be done on my own,
No one, but I knew my strengths, which were deep inside
sown.
I knew the ambitions were erupting inside me,
I had to let that plant come out and convert into a tree.

So here I am, standing in front of multiple doors with the
keys in my hand.
I have to unlock the doors using the right keys to prove my
stand.
I believe that I can do it and that’s all I need,
I will use the best food to nurture the seeds.

Swinder Kaur

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